We are only limited by our Own Attitude and the choices WE make.
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This Buddy last logged in at 04-02-2008
Birthday: 13-04-1972
This is my story
Im a born again Christian, Australian ( british born) I grew up from aged 3 in Australia but I have always been seen and felt British.
I am Happily married to an Aussie since 1993 (teen sweethearts) and we have one child (after 11 yrs trying for a baby with infertility). We moved to Britain 9 years ago as I wanted to find my British roots, hubby could get work easier here as a Civil Engineer and we also wanted to do Childrens camps in Russia.
We were trying for 11 yrs for a baby, I had bad PCOS, obesity and internal scars as well as a 20cm Tumor. After my band surgery I suffered an Ectopic pregnancy and struggling emotionally. I started losing weight though which has helped.
Im still currently (according to "THEM") 9 stone overweight.. but I know my body and its structure and capabilities and I would be happy to lose about another 5 stone. I have already lost about 6 stone. (40kg or 90lb)
I was abused as a child and learnt to eat through the fear and pain. I developed Perthes disease (a hip disorder) at 12 and through parental neglect it wasnt diagnosed before perminant damage was done. After several surgeries I had my hip replaced when I was 16 (youngest in Australia to have this done in 1988) But lack of exercise and food issues meant I put on weight.. my body loves fat.
Many years went by, and it wasnt until after I moved to the UK and actually greatful to have the National Health system that has put me on the road to recovery.
As life went by over the years I got depressed and was diagnosed with Borderline Personality disorder (now cured thanks to God) and other stuff like infertility issues so when I was 28 years old my weight was 162kg (26 stone) I was offered an Adjustable Gastric Band by Mr Fiennes. (Privately insured at the time through WPA).
The mental issues were my biggest barrier and even after surgery my lack of eating didnt seem to impact my weight loss as I could still get in the calories and my metabolism seemed to be on strike. I had a mini breakdown as I could no longer binge eat any more and realised I was obsessed with food. Finally I gave in and self admitted myself to the Priory Psychiatric hospital Hayes, where I spent 4 weeks, during which I was seeing a therapist AND a psychiatrist and going to Overeaters Anon for a while .After loads of therapy I finally I realised I was my own worst enemy. No amount of support groups would help me if I didnt do it for ME..I needed to take control and realised my key to getting anywhere with weight loss was exercise < something only I could do. So I fired my therapists and decided to do it on my own for ME.
I joined a gym and got a personal trainer, the weight started shifting quick.. sadly Isuffered an ectopic pregnancy but despite this emotional time when not only was I losing weight but my fertility was returning I over came a lot of emotional issues.. and 3 years into my weight loss journey we moved away from London to Wales.
This was hard as I was a 4 hour drive from my Surgeon and all my friends and church family.
To keep on the exercise regime I bought my own gym quality treadmill but with my hip soon needed re replacing have been told to cut that out for the moment.. but now 6 years since my Lap Band surgery my weight is about 125kg (270lb) I know for some this is still huge and others expect me to have lost more having had weight loss surgery but for me I am NOT ever going back up which is a mega step forward.. I plataued for a while but then started going down again..
Now Im 6 stone ligher and have had a couple of major gynae surgies plus fertility drugs and Praise God after 11 yrs trying for a baby I finally had a son in January 2006 . Pregnancy and Birth helped me lose even more weight as my body suddenly had a metabolism. My body LOVES being pregnant and LOVES breastfeeding and I ended up 2 stone lighter when my son was born than my pre preg weight!.
I still struggle to work out and still struggle though my eating disorder but my mental hangups are much less after a good stint of Gestalt therapy..
I now feel ready to tackle my weight again.. My son is at an age I have some ME time at last.. plus he keeps me on the go!
I put my sucess down to doing it for ME.. and no one else.. I have to live with myself 24/7 and until I realised that I was going no where.
Thank you to my God who only has ever allowed me to go through the things HE knew I could cope with!
