im pissed off with being fat, can any1 help?
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This Buddy last logged in at 22-11-2006
Birthday: 17-09-1969
This is my story
the only thing that has been constant in my life as far back as i can remember are the words FAT- FOOD-DIET-WEIGHT WATCHERS-SLIMMING WORLD-FAIL-FAIL AGAIN-FAIL AGAIN and my favorite CHOCOLATE.
I am 37 and have 2 children, I am a single 'stay at home' mum but now the kids are getting older I would like to go back to work, I have completed many courses to get geared up for this change and am, at the moment, learning to drive.
My children are clever and beautiful, I am in a stable relationship, I have a close and loving family and consider myself very lucky as I have many good friends. Everything and more I need to be happy, except one thing I AM FAT!!!!!!!!!!
I have been on a constant diet (slim-fast, weight watchers, slimming world, those horrible ones that give you terrible wind!, cal counting, you are what you eat (only did that for a day) and paul mckenna) since I was about 13 and I really believe that every day since then Ive thought about food! Saying to meself "I'l try and be good today" or "I'l try and get back on track today" or "just say no to chocolate today"......
Although I've got friends and family I think my best friend is chocolate, its never let me down, its always been there for me when I need it and I always feel better after Ive had it, in fact I think I love my best friend more than any other. But as we all know there can sometimes be a very thin line between love and hate and for all the good things it offers I HATE my best friend, its controlling, it takes my money and it likes being my serect friend that no-one else knows about.
DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON TRYING TO FIND NICE CLOTHES IN SIZE 24!!!!!
Im fed up of this never ending cycle of self-hating, failing frustrating way of living, I just want to be free of all this, to not even give food a second thought, I want to be thin and healthy. Im hoping Im not the only one that feels like this.
I love Anne Diamond, I think she looks great and I agree with everything she says and I would love to have the same surgery but I simply cant afford it!
I do feel quite liberated writing all this as I dont think Ive actually said how I really feel out loud, I hope theres someone that can help me feel better about myself.
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